(she requested me to keep her identity anonymous)
Saturday, January 31, 2009
Thursday, January 29, 2009
Saturday, January 24, 2009
Thursday, January 22, 2009
(this is how she look whenever she up to some mischief)
(relaxing while we sorting out the wedding details)
It was a good farewell for me. I am both happy and sad. Happy cause her suffering finally ended and sad cause we have to learn to live our life without her from now on. It all seems so surreal that she have been bed-ridden for the last couple of months. All that I can remember is all the happy moments together. The holidays we took, the places we went, the joke we shared, the look on her face when she is up to some mischief like hiding my stuff, or tickling me when I am asleep.
(we always teased her of her nutty proffesor's hairstyle....)
I believed that in life, we don't need to try too hard sometimes. Whatever that is meant to be, will be. All these while, I have been worrying that she will passed away alone without having any family members by her side. It torn my heart just thinking about it. But somehow, strangely, of all her 33 descendants, I am one of the selected few that has the opportunity. I am just so glad.
PP has always been a very strong person. From the day she was born, till the day she passed away. She is the fourth among her 6 siblings. When she was born 75 years ago, she was left under the bed to die. Cause she is a daughter and times were really bad then. She survived.
(together with her babies)
After she was married to my grandfather, life was hard too. They were very poor and were struggling to bring up 6 children. I remembered she once have to steal a can of condensed milk just so that she can dilute it in water to feed her children. PP worked very hard to help my grandfather in whatever way she could to make a living. My grandfather would carry his curry noodle stall over his shoulder during the day and PP would set up a stall by the street at night to sell fried kuoy teow. All that I can say is that, thoughout her lifetime, through all the hardship, she never once complain. She would just work and work. Despite of all these, she still managed to keep the house tidy and sparkling clean. That's my PP.
(PP smiling happily enjoying the atmosphere of our wedding day)
Life got better eventually. I still remembered how I ended up in Kluang and not Singapore. Mom was divorced when I was barely 1 year old. She was struggling to take care of me and work at the same time in Singapore. On one our faithful visit to my grandparents in Kluang when I was about 4 years old, in the evening, at my grandparents' hawker stall, when we were about to go back to Singapore, PP said to me, "why not you stay here with me, I'll take you to the playground everyday". That's how I ended up in Kluang. The 'playground'. Since that evening, every evening for a month I think, PP never failed to take me to the playground.
(I love this one)
When I was in primary school, every Saturday morning, still in her pyjamas, she would drive me to school for POL class (chinese subject). When the class is over, I would find her waiting for me at the carpark underneath a huge canopy tree, fully make-up and dressed in one of her pretty dress. We would then go to her favourite hair salon and have her hair done nicely. Despite of her hectic schedule, she always find time for facials & doing up her hair. Or whenever we go out, she never failed to put some make up on. Those days, she uses only Shiseido & Kanebo ok..no joke. Even after when she gotten her first stroke and her hands were feeble, she would still apply foundation, pressed on powder, pink rouge on her cheeks, eyebrows, eyeshadows and lipstick. I remember how I used to touch up for her, whatever that went offline, whenever she is here to visit. Yes, we gather that she is vain, and we got it from her. Cause we are equally vain.
(3 generations - 2 mothers, 2 daughters)
She used to love going to the cinema too. She would finished off whatever work she needs to do as early as possible, and go for a movie. After that, we would go to this alley next to the cinema for Uncle Tu Tu's yong tau foo (he is known as Tu Tu, dont ask me why...). It was nice. She loves fishballs, kangkung, cuttlefish & fried pork skin.
For the past couple of months, eventhough everything else in her body was giving up, her heart still beats so very strongly. Despite of just being fed nutrient milk through her nose, she survived 4 long months. Like I said, she was a strong woman, right from the start, till the end.
We have lots of good happy memories spent with her. Like our Genting trip 14 years ago where she bought me a teddy that I loved. Or when we were strolling by Lake Toba 18 years ago looking at small fishes. Or when we were laughing histerically in a farmhouse in Perth in 1995 when a friend who never used a camera in her entire life were asked to snap a photo of us. Or when she joined us for a swim in the pool during the 1993's Christmas spent at Cornwall Garden. The one that she enjoyed the most was the Virgo Cruise which we went couple of years ago. We wheeled her all over the cruise and she loved it. Or when I covered her greys with henna mixture which she insisted that it was too thick, I went on anyway. She just laughed. It was nice. Really nice.
Sunday, January 18, 2009
On a bright sunny morning, with gentle cool breeze, our beloved PP has passed on to another new beginning, at 10:15am, with us by her side helding her hand, comforting her and gently nudging her to move on.
Rest in peace PP, may God be with you. We love you.
p/s: pls do not send flowers or money but donate to a good cause under her name, Mdm Fong Ah Noi.
Friday, January 16, 2009
Oatmeal cookies baking in the oven.
Oatmeal cookies & almond snaps.
This is what we had. It was yummy. It was nice to drive out at that hour of the day. The air was cool, there's no traffic. Perfect. Anyway, whenever there is ice creams at the end of the tunnel, it's perfect anyway.
Wednesday, January 14, 2009
Tuesday, January 13, 2009
In exactly 12 days it will be CNY. I haven't bought anything yet. Anything as in CNY goodies like packet drinks, tid-bits, mandarin oranges and etc. As for new clothing, also nothing yet.
Monday, January 12, 2009
Friday, January 9, 2009
Together with a bunch of good hearted people, the first step of a fund raising event to build a suitable home for the children was set. We had a meeting last Tuesday to discuss the details of how to go about it.
Thursday, January 8, 2009
Sunday, January 4, 2009
So there she is, my PP, still in Melor Ward in our Kluang Hospital since 30th Dec. It is very sad and frustrating for all of us to see her trapped in a frail body that no longer functions. All that she is still able to do is opening & blinking her eyes. Even so, we are not sure she is able to see or hear anything cause she no longer response to us when we talked to her. We are not sure that the stroke has finally got her sight and hearing or that she just gave up. Every now and then, I will catch a tear formed in the corner of her eye. It makes my heart wrenched in pain.
(Beautiful green scenery of the army camp outside the ward)
Her kidneys are beginning to give way cause she looks kind of puffy and the colour of her urines are that of a very dark colour (almost bloody). Gangrenes beginning to form on both of her feet due to lack of blood circulation despite of constant massaging. It was a sad sight. There is absolutely nothing we can do except to pray for the Almighty to embrace her as soon as possible.
(releasing birds to freedom outside our home)
From time to time, mom would held PP’s hand and whisper into her ear stories from the good old time soothingly so that PP will not fear should her end comes. How we wish there is something that we could do to lessen her misery.
(mom releasing the birds)
We bought some birds from a local pet’s shop early this afternoon, released them to the wild and transferred the merits to PP. Hopefully, thru this, in some ways, we can at least help end her suffering a little sooner.
Friday, January 2, 2009
We met for dim sum breakfast at 9:30am at the Imperial China Restaurant in Subang Jaya. When I finally made my grand entrance at 9:38am, I quickly spotted the clan sitting cozily in one of the big table. Luckily for me, I am not the last. Good improvement on punctuality (not me of course, but them. I am just striving to be late so that they are early) lols...
One thing good that did happened this New Year is the reconciliation of some estranged friendship & family relations. Way to go girls! It was just a pity that An not able to join us this time round - rumours has it that she got in quite late the previous night and can't wake up in time.
It was a nice breakfast catching up with each other and gossipping without having yawning husbands around fighting hard not to fall asleep or children fighting for mommies' attention. It was just us, girls, and of course, baby Alex too. He has been such a darling throughout the two and a half hour breakfast session without a single whine (even though he pooped in his diaper).
By the time breakfast is over, it was already noon. Did some groceries shopping in Sri Kota and after that, got my hair done. Finally. Been wanting to do something to my hair for ages.
So, there I was, at the salon from 1:30 till 7:30pm. Freaking 6 hours. Sat till my bum bum also sored already. Not to say I have a lot of hair but just a miserable bunch of hair also need 6 hours to handle. It was like this...
Step 1: wash, blow dry & cut
Step 2: wash, blow dry, bleach old highlights & coloured based
Step 3: wash again, blow dry, highlights
Step 4: wash & blow dry
(the back of my hair done in orange highlights)
My hair never felt so clean in my entire life. 5 washes in a day. Have you have that too? My whole body ached for sitting too long. I told Belle (my hairstylist) that they should get those reclining chairs so that we can be in our dreamland while they work their magic on our mane. She said I am not the first to suggest. If I am not the first, then why am I still sitting on that most uncomfortable chair on earth???? lols..:p
(the front of my hairdone in cherry red)
After my 6 hours ordeal at the salon, I quickly rushed home to change for family dinner at this place called 'Cha Wong' (Tea King) in Kuchai Lama together. Besides the usual 6 of us, Harrison's aunties and cousins joined us too. It was a lovely dinner. I always love eating there. Their style of cooking is very unique.
Anyway, that's about what happened on my new year day. A new hairstyle, renewed family ties & friendship for a happy new year. :)